in a world of my own,

"You are insane. You know that Hafsah? You are a monster. A despicable monster." I really thought my life wasn't worth living. Looking back after all those years, I can ultimately adjust few things that stick in my thoughtful mind and start appreciating them all. According to my survey, probably my huge mistake is that I put my hopes in dunya and thought that it is indeed the source of my fulfillment to create perfection in each thing I do. And how strange! I lose a little from myself and I cry. And my whole life is wasting and I grief. That's simply easy to destroy part of my life? Generally, there is something amazing about this life. The very same worldly attribute that causes us pain is also what gives us relief; Nothing here lasts. What does that mean? It means that the sadness I feel today will change tomorrow. My pain will die. My laughter won't last forever but neither will my tears. We say this life isn't perfect. And it isn't. It isn't perfectly good. But, it also isn't perfectly bad, either.

I have every reason to be grateful, of course. Meeting new people is one of them. Inspiring and motivating my inner self, that's what I always learn. Surely, I have to admit that I had expanded the diary of my life of which no one cares. If I am not mistaken, the first one was that Japan-Malaysia Online Exchange Project between Ahmad High School Pekan, Hagoromo Gakuin High School Osaka and Tezukayama Gakuin Izumigaoka High School Osaka under British Council Malaysia in 2012. It was saddened as I almost visit Japan due to this project. Nevertheless, massive thank you I beat to Sir Huzaimi bin Ahmad and Sir Yusnizam for having me. Also, for the people who have been with me, they must surely know a habit of mine since I started being friendly in high school this year. I wonder for how many people had I experienced talking with them about sorts of things I can't count on but seriously, if I am given a request, one of them would be a long-term memory.

And yesterday once again I am absolutely flattered to welcome Professor Donald Henderson Stewart (representative of World Health Organization) from Australia, several representatives of the Ministry of Health Malaysia, Pahang state Health Director and the officer of Pejabat Pendidikan Daerah Pekan as one of the official ceremony under Kelab Doktor Muda's association. They all were really loving and kindhearted type of persons I've ever met. I would like to thank all persons that were involved directly or indirectly for giving me another great opportunity in my life. I cannot believe to be part of the event among such honorable people from the citizens and abroad too -to enrich my knowledge in term of health care professionally based on the tips and those precious words. As a conclusion, I think this event was beyond beneficial and perhaps this new intercourse will remain still in the future. Thus, it's undeniable to say that each of us especially students that were chosen to involve had gained countless knowledge and experiences as for me. How do you expect the heir to be ignorant and completely oblivious to what is going on? And as a compassionate soul you can be, how can anyone live life normally when they are completely aware of what is going on? How many more lives need to be lost for one to actually give a damn? Those were few related questions to the discussion at the war room specifically about the objectives of Kelab Doktor Muda (KDM) of Sekolah Menengah Kebangsaan Ahmad, Pekan and the responsibilities for the society. From the bottom of my heart, this old school set up since 1962 contributes oceans of enthusiastic experiences with blooming marvelous stories inside. Thank you kind people.

"I am truly honored upon all of this."

And those words echoed in my mind since then.

Professor Donald Henderson Stewart is Associate Professor and former Deputy Director of the Queensland Centre for Public Health, at the School of Public Health, Queensland University of Technology, Brisbane, Australia, where he coordinates the Master of Public Health program and teaches in the area of health service management. He holds qualifications from the UK (Durham, Oxford, Leicester), New Zealand (Otago) and Australia (UNSW) and has held teaching and academic posts in each of these countries. Professor Don Stewart is currently from the Griffith Health Institute's (GHI) Population and Social Health Research Centre plus, he formerly (2006-10) Head of the School of Public Health at Griffith University. Plus, he has research expertise in health promotion, mental health, health and ageing, and public health services. During the last six years he has served as a Vice President and consultant of the International Union for the World Health Organization (WHO) in the Western Pacific region, specializing in school-based for Health Promotion and Education in China and Vietnam and currently more. He has over 35 years of international experience in the fields of public health, education and community development. Also, he has published 14 book chapters, 8 books/reports, about 70 refereed articles; and has supervised 5 post-doctoral fellows, 10 PhD and 28 MPH dissertation students candidates to graduation as Principal Supervisor.

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